Commit

Its almost over. The holidays, the month, and the year. Was this my best month yet? Absolutely not. I hope I can come out of this month without gaining. I will be content with that. That means I will need to lose a half pound today to come out even. Im sure that is doable.

I dont know whats going on with me lately. I dont necessarily think its a funk, because usually those just last a few weeks for me. This has been ongoing for the whole month. I just been really off. In all areas of my life it seems. A lot of negative talk has come back in place, which isnt helping matters. I need to refocus. Earlier this week I said enough is enough. Slowly Ive been eating better each day. Not perfection or even close to perfection. But better, and improving each day. Eating in this mind frame is always a struggle though. As for exercise well we were swamped over the holidays, which isnt any reason not to work out, but I didnt. I was planning on doing a race on NYE, and have been going back and forth if I am going to do it or not. As of Friday I hadnt ran in 10 days. And this is a 4 mile race, which is a little more intense than a 5K for me...especially since Ive only ran 4 miles one time. But I said you know what, commit Melis. Commit already. None of this shoulda, coulda, woulda. Live for today because who knows whats going to happen tomorrow. So I got out on Friday and did 4 miles. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. And than on Saturday I went out and did 3 miles. So yesterday I officially went and registered, so a 4 mile run is what I will be doing NYE at 4pm. Im debating if I will run today or not. Figure Ill rest up for tomorrow. Please let the winds be minimal, since it is on an island and I hear the winds get you from both directions. Maybe I need that little kick in the ass from mother nature.

Its been a hard month, but the last 6 months have been pretty decent. So what better way to end this year than on a positive note. And I think being in the race atmosphere will bring my mood up and maybe kick some motivation into me :) Two things I could use desperately right now.

I updated my layout....damn I didnt realize we had so many new members. Sorry Ive been slacking on the comments lately. Ive also revamped my goals for 2008. I feel 2008 is going to be my year. I havent had one year yet where I felt it was "my year". I deserve one.