Just missed it!

So I searched and searched for an appropriate picture and found nothing. Nada! So this blog is plain Jane today. Anyhoo, so weigh in was today, and I missed my October weight loss goal by 1/2 pound! But Im not letting it get me to down, because I did pretty good for the month of October. 8 1/2 pounds lighter than I was in September. Thats quite a pickup from my previous months. And I reached my goal of fitting in a size 10 during this month. Not to shabby :) I'm a little nervous what November will bring. I was going to lessen my goal due to the holidays, but than realized that's a cop out! Im running a 5k on Thanksgiving and that is going to jump start my successful holiday!

Im doing better than I was on my last post. I'll admit I didnt blog because of my emotional status. I tend to be pretty raw sometimes, and not sure if I scare people away. So I steered away this time. But I had a few rough emotional days, and I gave in to a few temptations. Maybe if I would have blogged (practice what I preach eh?) than I may not have gave into as many temptations. When I think back on it...I didnt do to bad, and I balanced it with my workouts. I also didnt let one temptation derail to a whole weekend of them. My emotional eating has definitely improved tremendously. My temptations consisted of some candy, fries (my major weakness), a few martinis, and than we went to PFChangs again this past weekend for Grants birthday. I took a look at the nutrition value online. Holy crap. Yeah. 1800 calories for one meal. Insane. Should I be surprised? Probably not. I ate half my meal and got my butt back to the track!

Speaking of track - Im in week 4 of the couch to 5k program. Ive had some issues this week but am back on track. My first attempt to the track was quite the experience. I headed to the track on Monday and it was filled with kids. I think they were having some field day or something, they had a table on the track full of medals for them. I didnt bring my watch so couldnt opt out to run someplace else. I needed the track for distance measurement. So I decided that I would still do my jog, I was going to see how far I could go without stopping. Well than the parents showed up to, and the kids, parents, and coaches were all gathering on the track and field. At one point a parent was walking towards me, in the lane I was jogging, when I got close to her..she wouldnt move! She starred me down until I went around her. What is wrong with people? The kids kept weaving in and out of me so I did a mile in 15 minutes and called it quits.

But I was back at it the next day, and now Im currently up to this:
1/4 mile jog
1/8 mile walk
1/2 mile jog
1/8 walk
Repeat
That takes me roughly 30 minutes and its around 2 miles. I dont know if Im going to be able to jog the entire 5k in 3 weeks. And that is unacceptable to me since Im a perfectionist. But I have to come to terms that walking some of it is not a bad thing. More positive talking to myself and Ill get through it. Maybe Ill surprise myself and pull through the whole 3 miles. Ill have to see how the next 3 weeks go...I may feel more confident about it by Thanksgiving.

I think Ive done enough chatting for now. Happy Halloween everyone :) I survived the candy and sweet war at work. That is always a nice feeling :) I hope it was a successful day for all of you ;)

Not such a great night

I will not let my emotions get the best of me. I will not turn to food. I will not use alcohol to numb my feelings. I will not. I. CAN. NOT.

Its been a rough night. Just some personal stuff going on that I'm not really going to go into, but it really turned my night upside down. I came home from work and caught another great episode of Oprah. Seal (the singer) and his wife Heidi Klum were on there. Seal is such a sweet guy! And a great husband :) After that, I decided to get another jog/walk in since its suppose to be raining tomorrow evening. So off I went to the track. I tried 3 minutes of jogging and 2 minutes of walking and it worked out much better than yesterday. I think the 3 minutes of walking was to much time in between the jogs. The jogs were easier on me in a way that my chest didnt feel like it was going to explode , but still a little rough as in I felt whooped after each 3 minutes. It felt like I was working hard, and I liked that. Will this jogging gig get easier? I hope one day the breathing comes second nature. I cant wait for that moment I get that "runners high". I have a feeling that will be many, many months from now :p

I stopped by Meijers on the way home and picked up something for dinner since I knew there wasn't anything healthy at home to cook. But I never got around to cooking dinner due to some "stuff" that went down. I cant believe how in a matter of a few hours you can be in such this great mood, and life is feeling great, to BAM! life isn't so great. We have to take the good with the bad I suppose. I still haven't ate dinner, but think Ill eat a bowl of cereal and than I'm heading to bed. I had to come post this blog or I was tempted to stuff my face or down a few beers. I think I'm past that moment now. Geez addiction sure is ugly, aint it?

Tomorrow's a new day, and I look forward to it.

Lets All Be A Tigger (Another great eposide by Oprah)

So I love Oprah. I know lots of people disagree with my love for Oprah, but some of her episodes have really helped me have my "ah-ha!" moments. So I tivo Oprah everyday, but I dont get to watch her show everyday since as you all know life happens. As I was chatting with a friend yesterday, she was telling me about Mondays episode. She has been really blue this week, and after watching this episode it really helped her put things back in perspective. The show was about "confronting death". She said I had to watch it. So yesterday when I got home from work I did just that. Am I glad she recommended this episode. As I watched this episode it definitely added to the focus Ive had lately, and made my perspective even more clear on how I want to live my life. I want to be a Tigger rather than an Eeyore (although I have much love for the cuteness of Eeyore ;) ) I just had to share this with all of you. :)

On the show it had people dying with cancer, and how amazing heroic they are facing death. There was this man, Randy Pausch, and he has pancreatic cancer. He was diagnosed last year and has gone through surgery, chemo, radiation, but the cancer has now spread and he has maybe up to 6 months to live. He is a married father of three children - all under the age of 5, and a professor at Carnegie Mellon University. This past September he gave his students a final lecture. There is a university tradition called, the Last Lecture. Hypothetically, if you knew you were going to die and you had one last lecture, what would you say to your students?" This was a reality for Randy. His lecture was on "childhood dreams". The lecture has been downloaded over a million times off the Internet. And he gave that lecture one last time on Oprah. Here is the link to the lecture:

http://www2.oprah.com/health/oz/oz_20071022_350_106.jhtml?promocode=HP23

Its about 10 minutes long, and make sure you grab a tissue ;-)

Have a great day FAT!

1 Week - Can I Do It?

Sure I can :) Today's weigh in came right on target. I lost 3lbs last week, and have 3lbs left to reach my monthly goal. So this week is all about staying focused. No time for derailing. I lost 3lbs week 1 and week 3. Week 2 I stayed steady due to overindulging for my anniversary, so week 4 it is...I can do 3lbs.

Normally today I would give myself a "free day" which is more like an overindulge day. Nope, I cant allow myself to do that anymore. That is the mind thinking that caused me my weight gain in the first place. So this morning I was very satisfied with my oatmeal vs the bagel Id get on normal weigh in day. And a salad at lunch will be fine, I don't need those fries. (That's what I did last week.) The weekend may be a little tricky depending on what we do. We are still debating if we are going to go to the bar on Saturday to hear Adam Beyer or not. If we do, theres always the temptation of alcohol. I think I could successful finish the night off with water, maybe allow myself a red bull. On Sunday its Grants actual birthday, so we are going to his Aunts house. She just bought this new house, mansion apparently from what I hear, and they are celebrating Grant, his Aunt, and cousins birthday. So not sure what the food selection will be like...but I think it will be manageable.

Im in week 3 of the Couch to 5K. Ive changed it around a bit and am doing 3 minutes jog, 3 minutes walk instead of the 90 seconds jog, walk, 3 minutes jog, walk. I went to the track on Monday. Its getting dark even earlier now so I knew the track lights would come on so decided to do my jog there. I was there for 10 minutes and that mens football team showed up. I kept doing my thing, but thats when I decided to switch it up and did the 3 minutes jog, 3 minutes walk. So I was doing a little bit further than the 90 seconds. Yeah... a little insecurity creeped out there. lol But I was proud of myself, they started their game and were a bit rowdy but I kept doing my thing. Hey its a public area, Im getting my workout on. :)

On Monday morning I put on some of my usual work pants, which are a size 12. And they were way to big. Lately they have been a little big, but still wearable. But now they are almost falling off me! This past weekend I did fit into a size 10 jeans so thought I might be close to smaller size in my work pants soon. But oddly my work pants that I currently have from years ago that are a size 10 are still to tight in the butt/thigh area. So I headed to the store to pick up a few new pair of pants for work. I hate looking sloppy, especially at work. I Tried on some 10's and 12's, and I fit a size 10, like a glove! I did a happy dance in the fitting room. And than said, damn girl your looking good. :p Amazing how much a pair of pants that fit boosts your confidence! This sure beats the size 16's I was wearing this time last year!

Weekend Warrior

What a weekend :-) I definitely earned the title of a weekend warrior. And guess what? It feels pretty freaking awesome.

Friday night was perfect. The guys had no idea we were there! We all gathered together and the athletic director and one of the coaches came over and gave us the agenda. And they got all chocked up while talking to us. They were overwhelmed by all the letters and cards they received from people on the 3 day. And said the event changed those boys lives. They were so excited we were there. So we lined up on the field out to the track, and formed a tunnel for the guys to run through. About 12 of us held up the banner for them to run through. A crew member brought a tent from camp, and we popped that up. (since the boys popped all those up for us!) And we had noise makers, our victory shirts on, some were dressed up in pink wigs and had pink pom poms to. When the boys came out they huddled on the track before running through us and they all took a double take. The announcer spoke about the 3 day, and how the boys came to help us and gave us a big welcome. And than the boys ran through with huge smiles, and some of them chanted, we love you! we love you! And as the coaches came by they had tears in their eyes.

And the boys won! 39-14, and are going to the playoffs. At the end of the game they came over to the area we were sitting in and saluted us with their helmets and sang the school song. The football players, their parents, and the coaches thanked us again after that. :) Im so happy they won and that we got to show our love back to them! I got a few pictures but they are all pretty blurry...but here they are:

http://s25.photobucket.com/albums/c56/Cajaya/Romeo%20Football%20Game/

After the football game we went to a local bar to hear some friends dj. We didn't stay to long, but I danced a bit and burned some more calories. No beer, just a redbull which probably wasn't the best choice but I was falling asleep! hehe

On Saturday we were going rock climbing for Grants birthday. I got up early enough that I could still fit in my last jog/walk for the week. I wasn't sure how I would feel on Sunday so wanted to make sure I got it in. This was the last day for week 2. I felt pretty strong through the entire thing, and at the end I did one full lap jogging around the track and didn't feel like I was going to keel over. And that was 3.5 minutes. I was pretty pleased with that :) We went rock climbing shortly after that. I didnt realize you had to learn so much with that! When we were in the training class, I was like am I going to remember all this? But I had no fear because my partner was apparently the teachers pet. Yes our Kristen was her example since she was doing everything perfectly. lol And Kristen tore those walls up! It was a great workout and I realized how weak my upper body is. But I made it to the top twice and was geeked about that. The first time I only got halfway up the wall and looked down and said, no Im coming down. But I overcame that and made it up to the very top. You really got an adrenaline rush getting to the top, like you conquered something huge. It was a blast. We ended up having 7 of us there, which was nice because people kept cancelling out on me. And two of our friends drove up from Indiana for the day, which I thought was really cool. We went and grabbed a bit to eat afterwards. Kristen recommend a yummie place, and I am pretty proud of my decisions there. Grant and I split a 5 beer 5 ounce each sampler, and than I got the Chicken Cherry Salad. I passed up the bread when it came, and fought off the urge to get the baked mac n cheese. Im a sucker for mac n cheese.

Heres the photo album of us rock climbing...we mostly got climbing pictures.

http://s25.photobucket.com/albums/c56/Cajaya/Grants%20Birthday%202008/

Today when I woke up I was pretty sore. Mostly my arms and abs. I decided to take the day off from a workout, and hung out with my sister all day. They just opened up this new outdoor mall near us, so we went and checked that out, window shopping. So I got a couple hours of walking in. We ended up grabbing dinner at Mongolian BBQ, where I stuck with chicken, veggies, and pineapples, and skipped the rice.

Im really happy with my weekend choices. I didnt think it would feel as good as it did! This morning I saw a drop on the scale. I need to lose 3lbs this week and 3 next to make my October goal. Im 1.5lbs away from this weeks goal. Hopefully I can meet this goal, so I am staying focused :)

P.S. I signed up for the 5K Turkey Trot today. In my couch to 5k Program Ill be at week 7 where I should be able to jog 2.5 miles. So even if I can do that and walk the last .6, Ill be happy with that. Im excited about it. And what better way to start off the holiday weekend :)